ALONE !!!!!!

How I wish that people would listen to me. But they just don't. Its the 2nd time this stupid feeling has happen, this depression. I feel like nobody cares about me. Friends and family are just word that has no value to me now. I wish it could all go away. This sad stuff always happens to me, things just don't go my way. Friends are closer to each other than me. I felt ignored and alone. Why ?, I used to wonder, but the question still remained unanswered. Is it that they are not right for me. I just don't know. Well I hope somebody is out there warm and kind, cause I'm all ALONE !!

Alone in a crowded Room....

This weekend has thought me the meaning of the phrase "alone in a crowded room". I know that nobody will ever read this, however it is my outlet from the harshness of life. To, that phrase, I've felt what it is to be alone in a crowded room.
Imagine seating in a car, where half of the time you don't understand what the conversation is about. You fell as though that they look down on you. Yes, that is what I've felt in recent times. The distant of good friends. Showing closeness in public is pure bullshit. Most people would think that my friends are close but sadly we're not, I feel that the closeness between friends does not extend to me. "Aiyo why you so slow one !. We already finish at 9.30 adi.". Regardless friends are rare find,however they cut you people still love roses. Really good friends are like a speck of dust in the flow of time. Harder still are those that stay with you for eternity.
I've got to stop pretending that I've got plenty of friends, in fact I've got only a hand full. Haha, this is what I would say to myself when friends start to comment on me. They do not know that such comments actually hurt me. Well if they think their better than me, let them be, its their life.
Well this alienation extends to my family to. I still feel that my parents love ,y bro and sis much more than me. However I don't blame them, as I've been branded BAD. Who would have though or had foreseen this, I didn't.
So, in the end I feel that I'm all alone, well I hope that it'll thoughen me up as to not to ask for help from those who alienated me. Well to those 0.001 % who actually read this I thank you very much. In the end its all my fault.

What I like ?

What I like?
I like the smell of fresh air,
After hard days work,
When I'm free and flying.

I like the sound of joy,
Of friend's laughter,
Of comforting words,
That warms the coldest soul.

What I like ?
What I like ?

I like taste of happiness,
Of triumph,
After the sourish down,
and millions taste of life.

I like the touch of hope,
As light as air,
But can lift your spirit up,
If your low in life.

What I like?

I like the sight of peace,
Of company of people,
That you love and care,
That is you who is reading.

EXAMS !!! EXAMS !!!

Hey 'll its the time again....
Its the time of the year where I've got to study for exams. Regardless of all the bads 'bout exams, its still kinda fun to seat at a cold stressfull hall, filled with anxiety and suspens of what question may appear. It still feels lonely in the seas of people. The competition that drives our natural instinct to be the best and nothing but the best will soon force many to study by burn' the midnight oil. Haha.. I've got 6 subjects this sem'. T're English, B.Malaysia, Quantitative Studies, Acc., Macroeconomics, and of course Business Info' Sys' and Appli'. 13 weeks of studies with just 2 hours to prove that u got what it takes to stomp that 50 passing mark..hehe.

Well I hope that the best may turn out and sail this storm with a breeze...I
Well good luck ya'

A journey of life

Life is like a journey,
A journey of the seas,
That is only once in a life span,
Only once for us.

From a port that is mortal,
to another of the immortal,
The ship to board is the same.
Where it takes us depends on us.

The captain is I,
for where we steer is where we go,
For cold winds will misguide us,
Tempt us into rich mirages.

For our guide is a single star,
to find the one port,
But hard to follow that one true star,
As many fail to do so.

But at last,
when we find the port,
We're sure of its riches,
Of such places.